isolation

surely i can figure out something useful to do with my time today. it's so quiet. i feel very isolated... i wonder why i don't put some music on, but somehow i can't. there's actually some sun outside. i should figure out a way to get myself out of the house maybe. my apartment is a disaster again. i should be cleaning up, doing laundry, going through the piles of paper on my desk, probably paying bills. these things require motivation i lack. i will shower and dress. that may help.

in need of distraction

i want to get out and be with other people to help keep my mind out of its negative cycles, but i seem to have no one to hang out with. not that i've tried very hard, but venturing out of this vicinity would be too much for me right now i think, and i can't think of anyone else i know near berkeley to call upon...