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Mar. 10th, 2004
damn you stupid beautiful weather!
Mar. 10th, 2004 11:54 pmit's so difficult to sit at work when all i want to do is lie in the sun with a good book or take a walk by the water... yesterday after work i went down to emery point and sat for a bit looking at the pastels over the bay, then went home and caught the sunset from my roof with a glass of wine. today i had to go to my bank on my lunch break and decided to snatch an extra half hour (a full hour for lunch? say it isn't so!) and grab some food from berkeley bowl and bask in the sunshine. i was reminded of my 2nd semester at berkeley when i used to always get a burrito at the terrace cafe and sit in the sun reading or listening to talk of the nation. (and i really do mean practically always. i ate more terrace cafe burritos that semester than you probably care to imagine...) being a carefree undergrad was such the ideal life. if only i'd had enough head on my shoulders to actually enjoy it at the time! my daydream is to be an eternal college junior, learning whatever interesting stuff catches my fancy, but not required to produce any serious original work. my other daydream is to actually find something i'm passionate enough about that i'd want to really delve into it and produce the work... at any rate, taking in the sun with a cool drink and a good book plays a huge role either way.
in other news, my manager is on vacation this week, and i am therefore being extremely productive at work, despite my longing to be outside in the gorgeous weather. i really don't take management well, hate hate hate having someone looking over my shoulder. the more someone tries to tell me what to do, the more resistant and resentful i get and the less i actually feel any desire to get anything done. when the manager is away, my productivity goes up drastically. i do need some accountability, because left entirely to my own devices i'm unlikely to get anything done in a timely manner at all, but it should be very hands-off and non-nagging. a very fine line to walk i'm afraid... i wouldn't want to have to manage me!
in other news, my manager is on vacation this week, and i am therefore being extremely productive at work, despite my longing to be outside in the gorgeous weather. i really don't take management well, hate hate hate having someone looking over my shoulder. the more someone tries to tell me what to do, the more resistant and resentful i get and the less i actually feel any desire to get anything done. when the manager is away, my productivity goes up drastically. i do need some accountability, because left entirely to my own devices i'm unlikely to get anything done in a timely manner at all, but it should be very hands-off and non-nagging. a very fine line to walk i'm afraid... i wouldn't want to have to manage me!