meep

for me i think she has a valid point. the emotions are controlling me either way, whether i struggle against or cut off the feeling or not. how can i really deal with the emotions if i never let myself actually feel them, learn what's really going on in there? the "feeling" of the depression is independent from these emotions that come surging. it allows them to be amplified, reduces my ability to withstand them. but i guess you could say it provides an opportunity to delve into and examine them. :> as you say, the comfortable, familiar shit of depression, it's safe and homey. but the emotions, they're kind of terrifying...