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[lilamp]

%k->lila% stop
%k->lila% berating yourself
To k: i'm not berating
%k->lila% (lila) i'm a great big dork, nothing new
To k: that's not berating!
To k: it's just really annoying
To k: why can't i ever do things right the first time
%k->lila% see you are berating
%k->lila% yourself
%k->lila% freak
%k->lila% how is lamont
To k: you are always asking that
To k: i haven't even talked to him since i talked to you yesterday
To k: anyway it's just really fucking annoying that i'm always having to take things back and exchange them or fix them or redo them or just plain regret them because i can't make the right decision in the first place
%k->lila% does this happen alot?
To k: yes!
%k->lila% like what other example?
To k: all the friggin time
To k: i gave some
To k: the mattress
To k: the tv
To k: i've taken so many shoes back i can't count them
%k->lila% weird
To k: camera, i should've gotten the one with zoom
%k->lila% maybe you jsut always think the grass is greener
To k: oh and haircuts
To k: i'm always having to go back and get them fixed
%k->lila% why do you think this is
To k: it's not just grass is greener though
To k: i think more often than not i've genuinely just made the wrong decision
To k: and if i get the right thing i'm totally happy
To k: the other day when i bought the poi i had to take them back and get a different color
%k->lila% but don' you think that's neurosis?
To k: i don't know
%k->lila% i mean, is the color of your poi so important that you have to take it back?
To k: sometimes i'm happy with things
%k->lila% and hair grows
%k->lila% you have such interesting issues
To k: i'm trying to see if there's a trend in the kind of things i end up being unhappy with
%k->lila% it makes me jealous
To k: err?
To k: you freak
To k: i'm generally happy with furniture i buy
%k->lila% well i just think that i would have more intresting therapy sessions if i had issues like yours
To k: i'm fine with clothes
%k->lila% my issues are kind of nebulous and stupid
To k: household stuffs
%k->lila% but not with shoes
To k: shoes are a definite problem
To k: b/c comfort is important
%k->lila% shoes are hard to pick though
To k: they have to fit right and be comfortable
%k->lila% you have to break them in
To k: it's possible to make a bad decision with shoes
%k->lila% yah
To k: with clothes if they don't fit quite right it doesn't realyl matter
To k: doesn't hurt anything
%k->lila% i got a really nice pair of shoes that were xpensive one size too small
%k->lila% i swore i could wear them
%k->lila% but i was wrong
To k: that is sad
%k->lila% yes
%k->lila% they are john fluevogs@!
%k->lila% fluvogs
To k: ooh
%k->lila% however you spell that
To k: i'm not sure what they are, but i've heard ppl talk about them a lot
%k->lila% my boss keeps treating me like a "cosmopolitan" person
%k->lila% "city girl"
To k: with the mattress, comfort is again a serious issue.
%k->lila% help me.  it is weird
To k: it's possible to have made a bad decision that can have a serious affect on my person
To k: effect
%k->lila% like the tv. hahahaha
%k->lila% is this the tv you say i broke?
To k: with the other things i dunno
To k: the replacement tv i bought for the one that broke
%k->lila% you had to return it?
To k: i had to toss it
%k->lila% the new tv?
To k: no the old one
%k->lila% you had to buy a new tv and then toss it?
%k->lila% oh
%k->lila% that is so weird!
%k->lila% i swear on my mother's head i didn't touch it!
To k: i have the new tv.  i just think i should've gotten the other one i was
 looking at.
%k->lila% that's a grass is greener thing
To k: with the tv and camera i think it's that they are large ticket items that are singular
To k: and perform functions
To k: with furniture it just sits there
To k: either i like it aesthetically or i don't
To k: i love my new palm pilot though
To k: (and i will get around to sending the old one any day now)
To k: i didn't have regrets when i bought my bike
To k: the trends aren't really working out here
%k->lila% heh
To k: sometimes i'm perfectly happy with my decisions
To k: i don't know what the deal is
To k: maybe i'm not neurotic at all!
To k: maybe i just make bad decisions!
%k->lila% maybe