crimson flow

[lilamp]

edit: no, this entry is not about "female issues"

i decided that going through my annual review was a special occasion, so i opened a bottle of wine. (also, drinking apparently makes you smarter, albeit fatter.) now, i realise that wine implies celebration, and that if i am drowning my sorrows it should be whiskey, but really neither is entirely the case. my review, though harsh, went pretty much as expected. i have been given 1.5 months to demonstrate that i can adhere to the rigid schedule required of my position, and to improve upon my procrastinating tendencies. i can't deny that i am definitely not a great match for an environment that requires such a precise schedule, and i have difficulty getting myself to complete in a timely manner things which i don't particularly want to do. this leads to the question of whether there is actually any job that i would do well in, or if i simply don't care enough to have a good work ethic... at any rate, i do actually care enough to want to accomplish a few particular things before i leave; i believe in leaving a place in better shape than you found it. i want to refine some of the processes and of course fully document everything, as is my wont. i still wonder if i might be able to somehow get into techwriting, seeing as how i like to write, and i like to document processes. and then of course there is my voice acting dream. i dunno what i will do next though. i expect i will stay in this job until about the end of the year, giving me time to feel that i've made some difference, then it will be time to move on.

while opening the bottle of wine, i somehow managed to get a small shard of glass embedded in the little finger of my right hand. go fig. lots of blood. is this a sign of something?

i must somehow get myself to buckle down and be super productive for the next few months. i have days here and there where i'm really feeling on and get a lot done, but they don't happen nearly often enough. we shall see what we can do...

Comments

[divsca.livejournal.com]

Heh, I read "crimson flow" as the subject and thought your entry was gonna be about something completely different!

Anyway, speaking of tech writers - the world definitely needs more of them. The problem I've often run into is that the companies that need them most are least likely to hire them. :\

[pfloide.livejournal.com]

So - you need to improve on your procrastination, eh?

Do you need to do it right away, or can you do it in the last couple of weeks in that 1.5 months?

(Don't you wish now you had that monkey treatment for YOU right now, though?)

[tlaad.livejournal.com]

It's disappointing to hear that you're not a good match for your job, but I am glad to hear that it's giving you incentive to think of what you'd rather be doing. I wish I had any experience with which to comment on the things you're interested in (um...but I've never been a tech writer). The nice thing about crummy jobs is that they're rarely permanent.