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why must i be doomed to buyer's remorse? it seems like every time i do something i've made the wrong decision. over the course of 8 months, i went to look at mattresses like 4 times and couldn't figure out how to decide on one, then when i finally made a purchase, i'm sure it's too soft. the television i bought to replace my old one that broke a couple months ago? i'm certain i got the wrong one. today i went and got the cartilage at the top of my ear pierced. she gave me two choices of where to put it (so it wouldn't hit any of the prominent blood vessels.) based on where i said i wanted it, she thought i'd probably prefer the lower one, but did i listen to her? no, i thought the higher one would be better, but now of course i'm sure it's too high and i should've gone with the other one... argh! why is it so hard for me to make decisions and be happy about them?!

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%k->lila% stop
%k->lila% berating yourself
To k: i'm not berating
%k->lila% (lila) i'm a great big dork, nothing new
To k: that's not berating!
To k: it's just really annoying
To k: why can't i ever do things right the first time
%k->lila% see you are berating
%k->lila% yourself
%k->lila% freak
%k->lila% how is lamont
To k: you are always asking that
To k: i haven't even talked to him since i talked to you yesterday
To k: anyway it's just really fucking annoying that i'm always having to take things back and exchange them or fix them or redo them or just plain regret them because i can't make the right decision in the first place
%k->lila% does this happen alot?
To k: yes!
%k->lila% like what other example?
To k: all the friggin time
To k: i gave some
To k: the mattress
To k: the tv
To k: i've taken so many shoes back i can't count them
%k->lila% weird
To k: camera, i should've gotten the one with zoom
%k->lila% maybe you jsut always think the grass is greener
To k: oh and haircuts
To k: i'm always having to go back and get them fixed
%k->lila% why do you think this is
To k: it's not just grass is greener though
To k: i think more often than not i've genuinely just made the wrong decision
To k: and if i get the right thing i'm totally happy
To k: the other day when i bought the poi i had to take them back and get a different color
%k->lila% but don' you think that's neurosis?
To k: i don't know
%k->lila% i mean, is the color of your poi so important that you have to take it back?
To k: sometimes i'm happy with things
%k->lila% and hair grows
%k->lila% you have such interesting issues
To k: i'm trying to see if there's a trend in the kind of things i end up being unhappy with
%k->lila% it makes me jealous
To k: err?
To k: you freak
To k: i'm generally happy with furniture i buy
%k->lila% well i just think that i would have more intresting therapy sessions if i had issues like yours
To k: i'm fine with clothes
%k->lila% my issues are kind of nebulous and stupid
To k: household stuffs
%k->lila% but not with shoes
To k: shoes are a definite problem
To k: b/c comfort is important
%k->lila% shoes are hard to pick though
To k: they have to fit right and be comfortable
%k->lila% you have to break them in
To k: it's possible to make a bad decision with shoes
%k->lila% yah
To k: with clothes if they don't fit quite right it doesn't realyl matter
To k: doesn't hurt anything
%k->lila% i got a really nice pair of shoes that were xpensive one size too small
%k->lila% i swore i could wear them
%k->lila% but i was wrong
To k: that is sad
%k->lila% yes
%k->lila% they are john fluevogs@!
%k->lila% fluvogs
To k: ooh
%k->lila% however you spell that
To k: i'm not sure what they are, but i've heard ppl talk about them a lot
%k->lila% my boss keeps treating me like a "cosmopolitan" person
%k->lila% "city girl"
To k: with the mattress, comfort is again a serious issue.
%k->lila% help me.  it is weird
To k: it's possible to have made a bad decision that can have a serious affect on my person
To k: effect
%k->lila% like the tv. hahahaha
%k->lila% is this the tv you say i broke?
To k: with the other things i dunno
To k: the replacement tv i bought for the one that broke
%k->lila% you had to return it?
To k: i had to toss it
%k->lila% the new tv?
To k: no the old one
%k->lila% you had to buy a new tv and then toss it?
%k->lila% oh
%k->lila% that is so weird!
%k->lila% i swear on my mother's head i didn't touch it!
To k: i have the new tv.  i just think i should've gotten the other one i was
 looking at.
%k->lila% that's a grass is greener thing
To k: with the tv and camera i think it's that they are large ticket items that are singular
To k: and perform functions
To k: with furniture it just sits there
To k: either i like it aesthetically or i don't
To k: i love my new palm pilot though
To k: (and i will get around to sending the old one any day now)
To k: i didn't have regrets when i bought my bike
To k: the trends aren't really working out here
%k->lila% heh
To k: sometimes i'm perfectly happy with my decisions
To k: i don't know what the deal is
To k: maybe i'm not neurotic at all!
To k: maybe i just make bad decisions!
%k->lila% maybe