strange day

i wasn't really sleepy last night, and i actually felt kind of rested this morning, despite not getting all that much sleep. i actually didn't have too much trouble getting up, except for the cold outside the warm comfy bed, and i wasn't sleepy all day. very very odd. i had an extremely good day at work, felt very productive and on top of things. and i have no idea why.

then i went to the gym and was completely lethargic. could barely get through my cardio and didn't manage the crunches i meant to do. that may have been due to hunger though.

my personal life is in chaos. piles of mail, to-do lists that haven't been looked at in ages, all sorts of things i feel i need to do that are weighing down on me. i have to get plane tix to fly to dallas for thanksgiving, and i'm supposed to find one for my mom as well. she's bugging me about it and i'm feeling pressured, which is never good, because it just calls attention to my supposed failure. i need to make an appointment with my doctor, and my upper right jaw intermittently hurts and i need a dentist appointment b/c my wisdom teeth probably need to come out. and i'm stressing out about the whole shrink/insurance issue, and i'm feeling isolated and neglected and needy and guilty and hurt...

and there was no west wing tonight.

oh yeah

and premenstrual too