inquisitish

hm, i like this idea from vzd. if you have any comments or questions for me that you'd like to make anonymously, please feel free to do so here. ip logging is off. la la la.

drugs la la la

it seems like the drugs must be helping i guess. whereas before something might have sent me over the chasm, now i feel it start to take hold, but then it isn't the flood that i expect it to be. it just keeps poking its head out, but there is no tidal wave. a surge maybe, but not strong enough to knock me completely off my feet... it's weird. i'm so used to dwelling on things when the emotions come, not being able to get the negative thoughts out of my head, feeling at their mercy. part of me wants what is familiar, wants to go into the emotion, to be in that place i would normally be stuck, but i am able to resist. it feels strange and foreign and slightly uncomfortable. interesting.