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they are such a struggle.
i keep making myself go to these chix things and trying to connect, but almost every time i leave in tears. girls are so hard to talk to.
at least the supreme court told texas to take their sodomy law and shove it up their ass.
if i had extremely specific skills i could get a job a lot easier. i've had a couple of offers from temp agencies for things i had to turn down. one was looking for a m$ access guru for a rush project. i've never used access before. sure i could figure it out no problem if i sat down and had a little time, but obviously i can't recommend myself for a rush project that really needs an expert to come in knowing exactly what they're doing. this morning i got a call about a 3-4 week project that wanted someone to set up some kind of a training program using some software or other they'd bought for this purpose. i'm not even sure what would be involved in something like this. i'm positive i could do it easily, but they don't want someone to come in with no fucking clue. i just have to say that i don't really have any experience with something like that. bleah. if i had it together i'd be spending some of my copious free hours familiarizing myself with various software, maybe even setting up projects for myself to work on. i need to get some useful experience instead of just sitting on my ass whining.
there is no air flow in my apartment at all. lack of direct sun makes it generally very cool, but in this weather i'm actually covered by a lovely thin sheen of sweat.
i keep making myself go to these chix things and trying to connect, but almost every time i leave in tears. girls are so hard to talk to.
at least the supreme court told texas to take their sodomy law and shove it up their ass.
if i had extremely specific skills i could get a job a lot easier. i've had a couple of offers from temp agencies for things i had to turn down. one was looking for a m$ access guru for a rush project. i've never used access before. sure i could figure it out no problem if i sat down and had a little time, but obviously i can't recommend myself for a rush project that really needs an expert to come in knowing exactly what they're doing. this morning i got a call about a 3-4 week project that wanted someone to set up some kind of a training program using some software or other they'd bought for this purpose. i'm not even sure what would be involved in something like this. i'm positive i could do it easily, but they don't want someone to come in with no fucking clue. i just have to say that i don't really have any experience with something like that. bleah. if i had it together i'd be spending some of my copious free hours familiarizing myself with various software, maybe even setting up projects for myself to work on. i need to get some useful experience instead of just sitting on my ass whining.
there is no air flow in my apartment at all. lack of direct sun makes it generally very cool, but in this weather i'm actually covered by a lovely thin sheen of sweat.
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Date: 2003-06-26 04:07 pm (UTC)From:You'll notice that I just never show up for any of them.
Well, except for clothing swaps. Then, the awkwardness is well worth the rewards!
Seriously tho, I've left some of the get-togethers and ended up crying in the car in my driveway. Not for a long time tho - drugs have helped that kind of thing a lot. Also, I know when I'm just not up for it, and when I am.
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Date: 2003-06-26 04:30 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2003-06-26 05:14 pm (UTC)From:you're friends with me
Date: 2003-06-27 11:45 am (UTC)From:the stupid thing about social events is, if you are trying, people can sense it.
it's crappy but it's true. i'm not sure what the solution is. eventually, you end up being a bunch of chicks too cool to talk
to each other which is just lame. so i talk to the guys.
guys are cooler.
Re: you're friends with me
Date: 2003-06-27 07:35 pm (UTC)From: