surreal

yesterday, on vacation in hawaii.
today, fired.

yup, i came back from vacation today and was fired this afternoon, for, um, you know, not living up to my insane manager's uptight perfectionist expectations. and instead of telling me she thought it was time for me to move on and trying to set up a smooth transition period during which i could make sure things i was working on were finished, documented, etc. and help to train my replacement, all of which i was perfectly willing to do (and planning on doing soon, since we had already discussed my leaving within the next few months), she decided to up and fire me and stand over me while i cleaned out my desk. i had agreed to go in tomorrow to finish up some stuff and go through and make lists of pending items, information to impart and whatnot, but i wanted to do it on my terms, not with her standing over me watching my every move as if i were some kind of threat, so i said fine, if you don't want me to help you out with this transition, then i'll just go now. and there it was. so i get 2 weeks pay and they get to struggle through trying to hire someone and train them without my help. oh well!

i'm not overly broken up, since i was planning to leave soonish anyway, but this definitely wasn't how i expected to go! so it's an all new year now for me, woo. i guess i get my chance to go to the gym and focus on getting in shape for awhile without having to stress about trying to balance time at the gym and time at home while working 40 hrs a week. no excuses now!

looking back

subject + 1st sentence or so of the first posts of each month in 2004:

jan
box o' starter packs and a glass o' sake
the past week has been very nice, year starting off well so far. should catch up here but i'm tired and lazy and watching gilmore girls instead. went to the doctor today, one month on lexapro. my nurse practitioner gave me a whole box of starter pack samples, 3 months worth!

feb
update? anyone? bueller
sg13 was mostly good. i spent some time wandering around not really knowing what to do and feeling kind of uncomfortable, and i spent some time being busy and feeling useful, and i spent a small amount of time actually interacting with other people. wish i could shift the balance more towards that last, but it's a slow process, eh.

mar
skye will probably be jealous, but she can babysit the robot if she wants to...
♥Lilamp and ♥Sunrise_dj * Might conceive one robot girl.

apr
rising up
i've been getting the most random stuff stuck in my head all the time lately, all over the map, from xmas music to classical to stupid crap to geoff trance to hits of the 80s... right now it's eye of the tiger.

may
look a boring update
decided to make an attempt at being social, went to bab5 thurs and to paisleychick's party in bolinas on fri.

jun
weekend whatnots and such
headed up to goa gil party in the woods on saturday, had a pretty good time, though it would've been nice to stay longer.

jul
personality memealicious
i get either
You are an SECF--Sober Emotional Constructive Follower.
or
You are an SRCF--Sober Rational Constructive Follower.

aug
me myself & this body i'm in
i've been in quite a bit of denial about having to make some lifestyle changes in order to get my creeping weight under control. i've been holding onto the idea that my eating habits aren't bad, and i'm exercising a lot, so i shouldn't be getting fatter, but reality presents me with unmistakable evidence to the contrary.

sept
taking care of the choppers
so i've been on the good dental hygiene kick since i visited the dentist a few weeks ago. i've been flossing! i've been brushing at work during the day! i've been using a fluoride rinse at night! i bought a sonicare toothbrush!

oct
blogacatmas
today is apparently "Post a Cat on Your Blog Day" , and so to that end, here is a pic of my late cat cyrano from my high school days:

nov
what now?
so what do we do now? part of me wants to just run away from this stupid country, but i also feel i should be doing something useful to make things better here.

dec
shake that ass
yesterday i was in a strangely good mood for no apparent reason, but today i was feeling tired and kind of blah, so i wasn't really overexcited about going to aerial dance class tonight. however, i gamely sucked down a mocha and ambled over. man oh man what a great class!

wtf

Shawnna Hughes divorced her abusive husband. But four days later a judge revoked her divorce because Shawnna Hughes was pregnant-- and pregnant women in Washington, according to this judge, can't get divorced.